I have lost 2 of my most beloved things in my life. My Faith and my sister. well, when i say lost i dont mean they died. haha. it's just i left church and i broke ties with my sisters.
church is rather a personal reason why i left. as for my sister, we broke ties because i felt that i was always the one loving her and doing things for her. i am not even asking her to reciprocate. as long as she stops rejecting my small little gestures of love for her, i would be totally fine. like if i rested on her shoulder, she would get angry and tells me off sometimes. its small little things like this that hurts me when i think about it. i've had enough. she says that she appreciates me but she just pray in her room and fast for me. if you love someone, you wanna make them happy, not stay in your own room and show yourself how much u appreciate them. i am tired. i dont wanna fight for worthless things.
anyways, i just finished my hmc exams today and i left really good about it because i studied quite a bit for it. i guess hardwork pays. alright ima play some games now. =D
Fraser Ben
